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Often in our lives, we look forward

We plan the future, make sure it goes our way

But many a time, I find myself looking back

Looking back on what I have done

And who it has made me today.

The people that have touched my life

Motivated, encouraged me

The people that have hurt my life

Pushed it down, hurt me

I can't help but to be so thankful for all of them

Brian Naylor wouldn't be Brian Naylor if not for them.

I find myself at times fighting things in my life

I fight feelings, thoughts, the past

But I always lose that fight

My mind comes full circle

Back to those thoughts

What am I to do?

Do I give up on something great?

Should I seek the work for a different happiness?

At night, I lay and stare at the light on the fire alarm

It helps me

Helps me get my thoughts gathered

But I still can never figure out what to do

So here I am

Sitting

Thinking

Getting nowhere

My heart longs for a love

My mind longs for a peace

Can I ever get those to coexist?

I guess I'll just have to start look ahead

Here's to the Future

Your Eyes

What happens in the end?

What happens when we love?

What makes us be(lie)ve?

The love makes our heart jump

Gives us chills through our body

The love makes us lose our thoughts

Our mind

Our Hearts

When I look in your eyes

It's as though I can feel your love

Your heart

You

When I look into your eyes

There is nowhere I'd rather be

Because you can always make me happy

Yeah, sometimes it gets frustrating

It sometimes gets complicated

But when I look in your eyes

For some reason, all that is

In my mind

Well

It just leaves, goes somewhere else

Because when I look in your eyes

It makes my heart jump

Gives me chills

Makes me lose my thoughts

My mind

My heart

Stress? Perhaps. I don't know.

So I have been busy lately and haven't taken the time to write new stuff. I thought I would be able to update everyday, but I guess not. My mind lately has been busy, a thousand thoughts. I just don't know what to do about a lot of stuff at the moment, but I keep my head up high.

The cool breeze grasps at my lungs

I try to take in the moment

But it seems as though my mind is stuck on you

That is a problem some say

But I dare to say it's not

To be able to close my eyes

And imagine your beautiful smile

Or get a glimpse of a moment

Where you gazed into my eyes

I love you and I always will

So take my hand

And we'll run away

Hmmm....

So I have no new stuff to post so I guess I'll just make something up on the spot:

I walk briskly in the cool wind

Then upon the hill I collapse

I stare at the tree above

It feels as though as it is my shelter

My protection from life

I shiver

What am I doing?

The music that is pounding my ears

Feels as though it is just background noise

The clouds slowly roll over the blue sky

The sun peaks out and blinds me

I keep on a thought

I hate it

I hate the grass

I hate the sky

I hate the trees

I can feel the ground warming with my presence

I have been here too long

I need to get out

But where?

A tear slowly rolls down my numb cheek

My eyes, blurred with the oh-so-common moisture

I can't do this anymore

My soul needs the joy

But where has it gone?

Finally, I dose off, into my dreams

Please!

If the day breaks and I'm not there

Be sure to tell me

If the summer days come around and I'm not there

Be sure to warn me

Cause I can't seem to get up anymore

And I hope that this what I'm waiting for

Oh please tell me what we are here for

Oh please tell what I'm doing here

Cause I know that this can't be the end

And moments on end we're just sitting here

Oh please tell me what I'm doing here

The grass is dying with each silhouette

And I lost it all to a silly bet

The tracks keep playing through my stupid head

Tonight I just can't seem to get to bed

Oh please tell me what I'm doing here

My phone is lying completely motionless

My soul is stained with my sins

And I have more loses then I do wins

Oh please tell me what I'm doing here

The checkmarks on your crazy list

Mark the moments that I have always missed

My car is smelling like old take out food

How I speak to you, it depends on my mood

Oh please tell me what I'm doing here

Do You?

The sun's been coming up a little bit too late

And I'm tired of being here in the dark

Oh, I know that your around

And I know that your still here

But I need to know

Do you, do you

Do you love me?

I'm drawing blanks

An endless stare

For I don't know what to do

I don't know where to go

My heart sets out on a path

That is different than the truth

Do you, do you

Do you know what to do?

The moments passed a little too fast

And I wasn't quite ready

The future was to be looked out for

But now it's right before my very eyes

My mind was set on a fairy tell

Oh I wish I could say 'Happily Ever After'

Do you, do you

Do you really think this is right?

Life

Well, I'm trying to write on here everyday, but that isn't really working out. This last week has been a good one, better than the one before, that's for sure. Change is upon me and I am scared crap-less, but I'll face it like I do with any problem. I am glad to have friends and family in my life with me to help me in times of need, and hope they know that I am here to help them whenever they need it. I'm glad that my best buddy and I are on the same page again, for he has brightened my week! So here's to another week of fun, hope it can be as surprising as this previous one!!! And here is a poem about LIFE:

Have you ever watched rain pour from the sky?

Ever just watched an ant walk on by?

Did you ever just stop and think about life?

Have you ever just sat alone, starring at the wall?

Ever just watched an object fall?

Did you ever just stop and think about life?

Have you ever watched a person laugh?

Ever just dose off in a bath?

Did you ever just stop and think about life?

Have you ever watched a pencil write?

Ever just watched the bubbles in a glass of sprite?

Did you ever just stop and think about life?

Have you ever sat in a field of snow?

Ever just watched a friendship grow?

Did you ever just stop and think about life?

The Sandman

Curiously and carelessly take a stroll

Who knows where you will go

Fall asleep on top of a grassy knoll

Let the Sandman take you away

Take you away from this sad and melancholy day

Take you away from all the stupid things I say

Just lay your head back

And let the sun hit your eyes

Let the breeze pick you up

Ans let the Sandman take you away

A Summer Day...

This is one of my favorite poems that I have written:

As the light comes down and warms my face

I wonder about life, this one big race

As the grass seeps into my veins

I can feel the numbing pain

I can touch the breeze with my fingers

The scent that just seems to linger

I close my eyes and fall asleep

And as I lay there, the rain slowly creeps

It comes down, washing away my sin

But in all of this, I seem to grin

This perfect summer day never seems to end

Is it real? Or all just pretend?

Will I wake up? Have the coldness rush upon me?

Be drowning in the one big sea

The one big sea we call Earth

In and out of the same old routine

Trying to balance life on the beam

The beam that everyone sets to high

You laugh so hard, you seem to cry

Sometimes you get pushed around

Sometimes you are lost and never found

Being by yourself is the best thing to do

Remembering all your friendships that grew

As you close your eyes, everything comes back

You remember the memories you seem to lack

Like when the family sat down to say grace

You open your eyes as the light comes down and warms your face

Tears, Fears, and Cheers

Clear panes upon the window seal

Watch as the dew rolls down

Cool mist comes through the screen

The rich air, the gentle breeze

Close your eyes, let the moisture grab you

Leave worries behind you

And just take in the day

Become one with the drops

And fall to the ground

Drift off to the sweet summer lullaby

Take in the beauty, the hope in the skies

The gutters fill, take our sorrows away

The rain cleans our body, our breath, our step

No need to look back, the past is the past

The future is not set, it gives us the chances we need

Just keep moving forward, don't turn around

Keep an eye out for the warming sun

To clear your mind, to clear your heart

Everyone has their place, you just need to find yours

You have the strength to give what you have to give